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I SAID t Maggie evening from tal conflict already begun. You ervie t conflict ion, e unfating earts of ion - s idings of t yet lost its sense of exile; and it o Poo, unity indicated for making s service - per, completest devoutness could some s? It t forbade it tonous sy and clearness of ting a ground of concealment, and t by forsaking tion, sive guidance of illimitable s. S srengto obey t o turn eps in to t ionate fareo Po t evening ill, fleckered s ionate admiring looks t o t co alk; to tainty t Po urn t. Yet s s to say: s is rig see you concealment - say, I knoo say - it is anot make concealment necessary - but concealment is bad, may be caused: I feel t it misery - dreadful anger - and t part after all, and it would be o seeing eacher.
Pary eagerness of expression as if to resist t. But rolled part, let us try and forget it for one us talk togettle ime.
ook no reason to : ness made pain, and sed to s. together hand in hand in silence.
`Let us sit doood t time. See reals over it!
t do ts of ting ash.
`Ive begun my picture of you among tc let me study your face a little, to see it again. Please, turn your his way.
treating voice, and it rous face black coronet, looked do of a divinity o be urned up to it.
`I sting for my second portrait, t be larger t ther?
`O yes, muc is an oil-painting. You tall rong and noble, just issued from one of trees, ing ternoon she grass.
`You seem to ting t of anything now, Philip?
`Per I too many ts of seeds, and get no great from any one of tibility in every direction, and effective faculty in none. I care for painting and music - I care for classic literature, and mediaeval literature and modern literature - I flutter all ways, and fly in none.
`But surely t is a o astes - to enjoy so many beautiful t alo me a sort of clever stupidity only to of talent - almost like a carrier-pigeon.
`It migo astes if I terly. `I mig some poinction by mere mediocrity, as t least I s tisfactions ed to do great ones. I migy at St Oggs agreeable t noto me but some faculty t me above tence. Yes - ty.
Maggie did not t P ent vibrating again as it used to do.
`I understand o t kept on being t aler. But, dear P some one not rigo resign ourselves entirely, for t three years - even joy in subduing my own will.
`Yes, Maggie, said Ply, `and you are sting yourself up in a narroicism o dulness all t poure. Joy and peace are not resignation: resignation is t is not allayed - t you dont expect to be allayed. Stupefaction is not resignation: and it is stupefaction to remain in ignorance - to s up all t become knoo you. I am not resigned: I am not sure t life is long enougo learn t lesson. You are not resigned: you are only trying to stupefy yourself.
Maggies lips trembled; s trut P t for any immediate application it o it ter ty. o t
made an argument against tion t opposed Maggies face, made more cears, toucenderer, less egoistic feeling. ook ly--
`Dont let us t us only care about being togete of separation... we so live as long as you are alive, because I sime w me help you in some way.
` a dear, good brotears. `I t me, and been as pleased for me to love you, as tom sisfied tle of anyt is ter for me to do eartoget t I ed more instruments playing togeted voices to be fuller and deeper. Do you ever sing noen before.
`Yes, . But my voice is only middling - like everything else in me.
`O sing me somet on song. I may listen to t, before I go - someto sing a Lorton on a Saturday afternoon, my apron over my o listen.
`I knoo voce `Love in s playing, and ts it, isnt it?
`O no, I stay, said Maggie, starting up. `It us walk, P go home.
S o rise and follow her.
`Maggie, one of remonstrance, `Dont persist in tion. It makes me co see you benumbing and cramping your nature in t you and brigion. And it flas in your face still, until you dra veil of dull quiescence over it.
`terly to me, Philip? said Maggie.
`Because I foresee it end orture.
`I srengtremulously.
`No, you , Maggie: no one rengto do ural. It is mere coo seek safety in negations. No cer becomes strong in t o tional satisfaction of your nature t you deny no you like a savage appetite.
Maggie started a paused, looking at Ph alarm in her face.
`Pempter.
`No, I am not; but love gives insig often gives foreboding. Listen to me - let me supply you me see you sometimes - by your broteac Lorton. It is less you s you sting this long suicide.
Maggie felt unable to speak. Sill to tc out ing.
`Do you banis sometimes. If I meet you by c in t?
It is t to become irrevocable - es are about to close upon us - t tests our strengter ion, c any sopry t ruggles and bring us t t ter t victory.
Maggie felt leap at terfuge of P almost imperceptible s, and ted in silence.
Puation oo complete for to be visited ervening too presumptuously in tion of Maggies conscience - per no! - selfistle Maggie urn trong feeling must be better for Maggies future life, acles to t s be entirely sacrificed, and t sunity of culture, some interco live ions, in tion of results by ified: by adopting t of vie possible to obtain perfect complacency in co do agreeable to us in t moment. And it Pified le efforts to overcome Maggies true prompting against a concealment t roduce doubleness into cause neo tural claim on t made of justifying motives. o see Maggie and make an element in some of t savage impulse to snatcal and bodily constitution e. even pass muster , but must be singled out for pity, and excepted from ter of course o Maggie ion: it t of ered her mind.
Do not too need of unusual virtues, because to be extremely uncomfortable t t unusual virtues spring by a direct consequence out of personal disadvantages, as animals get tes, is pertle overstrained. temptations of beauty are muc upon, but I fancy tion to temptation to excess at a feast, e, bears to temptations t assail tion of toand as type of tmost trial to w is human in us?
P mot to us in ter abundance because our need is greater, enderly because o be ion and indulgence to aloof from all practical life as Pure iveness, olerant repulsion toe pursuit of sensual enjoyment, and trong natural tie in ion as a son - ed from ordinary conditions until time to triump ime for t at ty. t force in Prengt ts.